Tuesday, October 25

Update to website

Yesssss! I just finished designing my website, which I used Paint to see the results. And I am damn proud of myself considering that Paint is not the best of programs to use. My computer is such crap that even if I download Illustrator, everything would freeze up every 5 minutes.

Here's a little preview.

I opted for the KISS system (Keep it simple stupid)

I am excited to see it up in a few days.

Monday, October 17

Living with acne

I have acne. Some days it's good and some days it's very bad. Acne started when I hit puberty at the age of 11. I take after my father's side which seems to manifest itself the most. Living with acne is not easy, especially being a pro-Domme. So I often layer my face with make-up when I do have sessions. I lived with a low self-esteem due to my acne. For as long as I could remember I couldn't understand why "I" had acne in the family. My other siblings had fewer outbreaks then I did. There were times when I would get very depressed because of my not so perfect skin condition. Hopefully that will change soon.

I don't have a low self esteem anymore. Since I have learned to live with it and concentrate on other important things in my life. I friend and family who support me, I have a good sense of humour, I am an artist, I am doing what I love, I have complete control of my life, and I am my own boss.

But inspite of my acceptance of acne, I am still on the look for new ways to improve my skin. I bought myself a book which explains how to get rid of acne but the natural way, "Clear Skin" by Karen Jessett from acne-advice.com. I will give it a try since I no longer think than pills and creams will work on me. I've tried and it has failed me miserably. I hope that some day soon I will have clear skin, but until then I still feel like I am blessed and lucky.

Saturday, October 15

Fakes and Posers

Here is a recount of an earlier discussion via e-mail with 'nathalie' who is a submissive from collarme.

nathalie: Hello Mistress I would like to be your slave/submissive
(included is a cute pic of an asian girl - which clearly seems like it was downloaded off the internet)

Jade: Hello, like ALL male submissives you will have to respond to questionaire. So you are no different. Besides I think that you are a fake. Prove Me wrong by send a picture of yourself with a note saying "I am proving myself worthy to Domina Jade" and I might consider your application. If not I deem you a fake and will BLOCK you.

nathalie: I think you are fake.

Jade. Oh did I hurt your feelings for calling your bluff?? Oh boohoo. I think you have a little weiner which is why you hide behind that 'face'. But consider yourself lucky since most submissives pay Me for this type of humiliation. LOL

Send message and block user.

I really hate fakes and posers. If I encounter another, I will chew him/her out and spit em out. I have NO tolerance for anyone who wastes my time.

*sigh* end of rant.

Friday, October 14

Session with sub. p

Tonight I had a session with, to my surprise, quite a young submissive. He is 24 years and a damn good to the eyes too. It simply was delightful to dominate over sub p since I happen to be 24 as well. I can see that he had few experiences and was curious about D/s. He spoke french mostly but still understood english well enough.

Tonight I wore my new leather pumps with stilleto heels and thigh high stockings with a line running up the back thigh. It was a sexy combo. My pvc bustier was starting to peel. I did not want to ruin it even more so I wore my black satin bra and pvc mini skirt to the session. It was definitely a special night for the submissive as I usually do no bare my bra.

I started with some light domination like foot worship. He, as I understand has a light foot fetish. I had him kneel in front of me as I sat in the throne and watched him worship my feet and heels. I enjoy seeing submissives worship below me. It's this sensation I get, sort of like a high for controlling someone.

Next I did some light corporal punishment on his cute little hiney. He has a full ass, nice and fleshy. And ohhh did it turn pink very nicely. I flogged him and spanked him with my paddle just to see how he could take it. He wasn't such a masochist as he led me to believe from his e-mails. But I stilled enjoyed disciplining him nonetheless.

I proceeded to some CBT because it is one of my favorite activities. He was chained by the wrists while I caned his genitalia. I saw him wince and heard his sharp inhale as he was taking in my punishment. I like it when submissives do not whine and bitch. However, I didn't go as hard as I usually would go on my regular submissives. To me sub. p was just a novice so it would have been really inhumane of me to dish out the hard stuff right away. I may be sadistic but I still practice 'safe, sane and consensual' practices and always respect a submissive's limits. It is very important that other D/s players realize this as well.

I couldn't help but see that he was oozing pre-cum. So I teased him for having a hard on and made him confess his sins. Made him shy for talking about masterbation and viewing porno sites. And then spanked his with my hands for being such a naughty boy. By now I noticed that he made a bit of a mess on the floor. Being the 'evil' Mistress that I am, I made him lick every spot of pre-cum off the floor. It was a humiliating task for him but it certainly puts a smile on my face.

It was almost time to end the session and since he had been obedient I allowed him to cum before the session ended. However there was a twist. I attached clothespins to his scotom and started twisting and pinching the pins. I told him that he had the next 10 minutes to cum or not cum at all. It was so much fun watching his try to concentrate on the task at hand, pun intended, while I did everything to twist his balls and pinch him harder. And luckily for him, he came just on the nick of time too.

Overall it was a nice session with the young submissive. I hope to see him again. But next time I think he'd look very pretty in a dress.

Thursday, October 13

Kicked out of ALT

I had a profile AsianKinkySiren, on Alt which is an adult personals for the kinky minded. I did meet a few submissives from Alt but not too many. Well I realize today that my account has been suspended without warning and no e-mails to let me know that my account was deleted. Actually I should have known that they'd be so anal about me sneaking around trying to post my personal site when sending e-mails or posting in blogs. But whatever, I don't care. I find this quite humerous because they are trying to censor blogs and profiles!! Who ever heard of censorship in an Adult website anyways??? Besides Alt sucks in service, they hardly answer back messages. I can understand the long wait time from non-paying members, but the same treatment to Gold members too?? That is just bad business practice. But, I don't care either since I plan on opening another account but on www.collarme.com.